My Sick Habit

By September 28, 2014May 3rd, 2017No Comments

“But why


you prefer

to read


Why so far

from here?”

Because I’m 


for your attention

and when it


I anger 

and fill with shame 

that I so quickly hate 

all that I love,

and I run away 

in what ways 

I think 

I can, 

and I run to perhaps 

distract my sense

(it feels real,

I promise)

of rejection, 

and I run

close enough

where you can 

find me 

(with some due-diligent seeking), 

which is what 

I want, really

but I’m too

cowardly to admit

these cravings 

aiming to manipulate things, 

namely, you rather than me.

Pride would rather me 

hide behind another

book, song, poem

in another room,

seething while you,

at first confused, simply choose to 

sleep in peace. 

It’s really so self-defeating

I think, 

this running, 

and something 

I hate about me– 

my self-idolatry–

but seem to sink

right into its 

lap again, 


“No reason, really.

Just a change of scenery.”

“OK, baby.

Good night.”

Quina Aragon

Quina Aragon

Quina Aragon's articles, poems, and spoken word videos have been featured on The Gospel Coalition, Risen Motherhood, Journey Women, Fathom Mag, and The Witness: BCC. She resides in Tampa, FL with her husband Jon and beautiful, three-year-old daughter. Quina's first children's book, Love Made, is a poetic retelling of the creation story that highlights God as the Trinity, humans as His image bearers, and children as a delightful gift.

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